In this mad,bustling crowd of frantic people and never-ending activities where every mortal gets stuck in the rut of staying at pace with the others,where everything around seems like a black hole,that inspite of everything good happening in your life and people telling me good times are coming my way..........why is it that i just feel like closing my eyes and remember the good old days when i was a kid.??The moments when i used to bruise my knee after a bicycle race on my little BSA Champ multicolored cycle...and when my mom used to put Dettol and i wailed my eyes out because it burnt...............The moments when i used to come back from school and cry to my mom because i was one of the shortest girls in my class and asked her why god forgot to give me height...and she used to hug me and tell me that big things came in small packages...and i believed her....There were times when i fought with her like mad for silly reasons....and she still forgave me...i remember my teenage years...when irritability was my only emotion..........but still she bore with me......patient and kind......never got angry because of my petty tantrums.......
All these moments flash through my memory right now...at this phase...when people around me think that success is knocking on my door really hard (which again i think im just lucky right now,not because i was meant to get it),i dont feel like even thinking about all the materialistic achievements this month......nothing about the internship,or the basketball tournament..or even about any pretentious SGPAs....Dont want any gossip,any bitching about me,those eyes looking at me,waiting to cause harm..... those mouths that gossip about whether im even worth any internship or those wrong intentioned guys......
I can just think about going to my mom.......putting my head on her lap.....and stopping time.........
I just want things to be simple ...you know the KISS rule (Keep it simple,stupid)....
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wow..c, i told u..
listen sweetheart..im tellin u again..ppl whom u care for, care for u even more..they know how passionate u r about ur friendship with them..so don't bother, don't feel low n never change..coz u r jus too good the way u r...despo man!! haha! ;)
"Its lonely at the top."
"Winner stands alone."
heard of it.
Don't let people get to you, that's what they want.
Remember who you and what you are capable of.
It is just life in a crowd, where you get drowned never to emerge again. Don't let that happen to you.
Sour like a bird, fly like the wind. With people who care for you and people you care for.
:)
@anurag: thanks for the suggestion...but i would like to tell you that im not at the top...and i just dont want to lose the important people in my life....coz nothing can be more important than them.
@alfan: thanks for being there by my side.It means a lot to me..seriously..
Am sorry if it is so, or maybe I was trying to convey something else- ‘Top’ is a relative term.
You can never be on ‘Top’ from your frame of reference (sounds fishy I know, but that’s the best I can do).
I don’t know if it would be relevant to say, but something that I have learnt: When it comes to people the rules are different, you may lose the most important “thing” in life, but people are not “things”, sometimes just acknowledging and letting them know how important they are is the solution of the problem and then they are free to choose of the two sides, it is a choice they have consciously taken and you accept. Life is not so complex; we make it complex by our so called “understanding” of life.
I am not philosopher, and cannot explain what I really mean, but I really hope you get what I meant…
It is called communication gap for a reason. :)
“Life is beautiful. If it is not, change your looking glasses. Try something different, try something different.”
hey!!! Must say....so truly and innocently written! The emotions that u must be feeling just flows out of ur words out here!
A nice read!
and as Alfan says,"Never change!!" :)
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