I was wrong.
I was insecure with my life. I looked at everyone the way the looked at myself.
And its truly said that the way one judges others is a reflection of how one judges themselves.
And maybe I judged myself so much that I was always blank about what to post in my blog. And then I preferred not to blog at all.
I came home after the Surat Inter NIT basketball tournament. I met my best friend after a long, long time. I wasn't even sure whether he still thinks of me as one of his closest. I was wrong in doubting that. I felt the closeness. I was happy. Contented. And suddenly my insecurities flew away to some faraway land. I feel happier now. I got him back.
I thought I had become distant with Popat this semester . She is at home now. She makes me laugh like crazy. Im happy I have her.
Despo was the biggest surprise of this year. After seeing me laugh with him, sometimes I wonder, Can friends ever go away?
And then I get my answer: Never.
I wasnt even in touch with Poki this semester. But when I came home, I roamed with her all around the City. We talked about the times when we were kids and used to hang around and play Pictionary and dance together. It felt like Class 9 again.
And then I realise. That I was wrong in thinking people went away from me. It was me who went away from me. And when I decided to come back, I saw no one was gone. Everyone was there. And then I realised how on-the-edge lucky I was.
So this new year, I thought .. No jobs to be listed in the list of resolutions. Just an attempt to become a better person. And to make others happy.
A year to value goodness.