First of all ,let me jump as high as I can..July is here!!! Yay..
I must be one of the very few people who gets excessively excited about my birthday coming,and one of the rarest to sit with a pen and paper and actually plan it. So here it is,my favorite month,for the obvious reasons. I love this month for a lot of reasons,mainly being loads of rain,dewdrops on plants early in the morning, college reopening,looking forward to setting up my new room , meeting Popat after such a long time, seeing the birthday pics everyday ..again and again.. So many things happen during July. This July is a little different though. I used to spend every year normally roaming around with Amit , going to Cafe Coffee Day and Cool Point , Infocity, Gandhinagar. Used to listen to his talk, loads and loads of interesting ideas,the way he used to laugh like a moron. This year I havent been able to get a chance to sit with him in those places.And I spent these holidays without him. :( Hope to see him when I get back sometime during the later half of the year. One of my friends had told me that he was disappointed seeing sad posts in my blog. So I decided Ill come back with a bang. And yeah, so I am back ,with the best of my zest and zeal. One of the things I decided to do was to make a list of top 100 things to do before I die.
I had succeeded in making only a few,but thought Ill keep updating as I remember. So here it goes,the few of which I have in the making of a fulfilling life.
1)Walk in the sands of the Goa beach,in the evening..watching the perfect sunset.
2)Get a belly button piercing.
3)Make a dance video,and be the lead,with cool effects...using black,white and red.!!!
4)Get a set of professional photographs taken..the style diva for a day!
5)Have a pet organization.
6)Buy my mom a ticket to some place abroad,all by my own money.
7)Adopt a baby.
8)Taste Alcohol once..and see what its like getting drunk.
9)Get a tattoo.
10)Go to all the continents of the world once..even if it is one place each.
11)Start a cultural events academy.
12)Buy a cool NIKON camera ,used by most professional photographers,and take a lot of photographs.
13)See all weather conditions, snowfall,desert,rainfall,autumn leaves,spring flowers.....
14)Visit to a spa in Kerala.
15)Cook a full five course continental meal ,which btw is delicious...all by myself.
16)Do a ballroom dance,wearing the perfect Black gown.
17)Get a huge family picture ,which can be blown up into becoming a wallpaper of one entire wall f the room.
Loads of things happening in life. A cultural programme took place during our internship. One was a classical dance and the other was a Giddha (Punjabi folk dance of women). The giddha went well, but due to time constraints my solo bharatatyam didnt go really well.I didnt have time to edit the song, and my final performance had a lot of disturbance. Apparently the audience wasnt able to relate to it (a few came and complained as well). I was upset for sometime because of some random people coming and telling me things. But then,I thought its a challenge to come up with a performance without any flaws.
Anyway, Im making a trip to Vizag with a few friends of mine. I plan to celebrate a birthdya in advance during the weekend ,wear a straw hat, bubble chappals, and a shell necklace, and cut the cake on the shore ,water hitting my legs. I hope the weather and other things go the right way. Im really excited about making the trip . And Im missing a few people as well. So yeah,in short, this is pretty much what is happening in my life right now. 17 days left for me to go back home. Im happy and sad as well .Made a few good friends out here. Will miss them a lot when I get back. Lets not think about it for now. Lets hope the best for this new month.
Oh yeah, I also sprained my ankle in the aerobics class in the office building. I fell at an angle of 90 degrees flat on the ground. Its much better now. But lets hope it gets perfectly fine before I leave for Vizag.
Cheers!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
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In the midst of being upset, I just happened to see the tags of my blogs,and i realized that I have the maximum tags are of a)Memories b)Happiness c)Change is Necessary.
Why the hell am i losing my cool if Im having a share of sadness in my life then?
Why the hell am i losing my cool if Im having a share of sadness in my life then?
Theory of Karma!
I was going to write a post with a lot of vengeance,but saved it in my drafts folder. Because when I was half writing it,I happened to mention about the theory of Karma,which said that if you do bad to others ,it will come back to you someday. So let the punching bag stay in my drafts folder forever.
And i dont know how many times i need to repeat this to make my mind feel better, but if you want something good in life, you pay a price, if you want something better in life, you pay a heavier price.
I dont know what am I having to pay such a huge price.For what?
I still have faith in Him.I know He has something in store for me, because in this world, everyone has an equal share of good and bad. Maybe i had a lot of good,just paying dues for the bad.
And i dont know how many times i need to repeat this to make my mind feel better, but if you want something good in life, you pay a price, if you want something better in life, you pay a heavier price.
I dont know what am I having to pay such a huge price.For what?
I still have faith in Him.I know He has something in store for me, because in this world, everyone has an equal share of good and bad. Maybe i had a lot of good,just paying dues for the bad.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Optimism!
I always used to tell myself "If you want something good in life,you pay a price for it..If you want something better,you pay a heavier price". Dont know why i forgot what it really meant. And you know what ,I learnt another new thing .
"When you are failing,atleast you know you are attempting,and that is the first successful milestone youve reached".
I dont know whether Im paying a price for all the good things that had come my way in this year,or whether it is the onset of something good,atleast i know this. "This too shall pass."
"When you are failing,atleast you know you are attempting,and that is the first successful milestone youve reached".
I dont know whether Im paying a price for all the good things that had come my way in this year,or whether it is the onset of something good,atleast i know this. "This too shall pass."
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Swinging to Songs!
I always have different songs for different moods. I always thought I should make a list of songs that suit each of my moods.
a)Romantic : Right Here Waiting (Richard Marx),I Need You (Marc Anthony), Truly Madly Deeply (Savage Garden),You look wonderful Tonight (Eric Clapton), Teri Ore(Singh is King), Pehli Nazar (Race) are a few.
b)Enlightened/ Emotional : I Promise (Stacie Orrico) , Daughters(John Mayer), Krishna (Colonial Cousins) ,Tum Se Hi (Jab We Met),Viva la Vida (Coldplay), Scientist (Coldplay)
c)Sad/Depressed : Take My Heart Back (If Only)
d)Peace: Flames (Vast),Hotel California (Eagles)
a)Romantic : Right Here Waiting (Richard Marx),I Need You (Marc Anthony), Truly Madly Deeply (Savage Garden),You look wonderful Tonight (Eric Clapton), Teri Ore(Singh is King), Pehli Nazar (Race) are a few.
b)Enlightened/ Emotional : I Promise (Stacie Orrico) , Daughters(John Mayer), Krishna (Colonial Cousins) ,Tum Se Hi (Jab We Met),Viva la Vida (Coldplay), Scientist (Coldplay)
c)Sad/Depressed : Take My Heart Back (If Only)
d)Peace: Flames (Vast),Hotel California (Eagles)
Stuck in the moment!
Raindrops all around,the sweet smelling earth at its glorious best,a lush green carpet bed,the feeling that I get when I extended my hand out of the window,and feel the silver bullets striking through it."Magical" is what I think when I see the marvels of nature.But the greatest marvels of nature could be family. Wherever I am,wherever I go,but i cant help get stuck at the moment.
The balcony,with a lot of pots around...sweet smelling Lilies and citrus China grass,..the glassy money plant with crystals of water falling on the grass. This time,when my mom made the best coffee for me and my sister and herself. My brother would have his standard Chai. We opened all the windows of the house,little sprinkles getting inside. Then all of us,me ,my brother,my sister and my mom would go to the balcony and sit,each grabbing a chair for themselves.My brother and me preferred to sit on the floor,leaning against the wall,holding his ceramic Chai cup in his hand. Polly ,who loves sitting where she has loads of company,also came to the balcony and sat with us,listening to our talks. The hot steaming cup of coffee,that opened the pores and senses of my face,and my brother's talks that opened my mind. The merry laughter, my mother's jokes,my brother's humor, my sister's getting irritated because she was made the butt of most jokes, my laughter at the mere hearing of so many jokes.I used to be cuddling Polly most of the time,brushing her hair. She looked into my eyes,and was the purest. It seems like ages since Ive had a moment like that ,just sitting and talking.
Sometimes I think,everything is racing so fast. I got admission in NIT Bhopal.Started living in another hostel,away from home.I used to look forward to going home on vacations.And this time Im spending it in Hyderabad,again,away from home. I want to close my eyes,and feel each moment with my family all over again.Those wintry afternoons, the rainy evenings and summer nights.
I just close my eyes.I feel it all over again.
The balcony,with a lot of pots around...sweet smelling Lilies and citrus China grass,..the glassy money plant with crystals of water falling on the grass. This time,when my mom made the best coffee for me and my sister and herself. My brother would have his standard Chai. We opened all the windows of the house,little sprinkles getting inside. Then all of us,me ,my brother,my sister and my mom would go to the balcony and sit,each grabbing a chair for themselves.My brother and me preferred to sit on the floor,leaning against the wall,holding his ceramic Chai cup in his hand. Polly ,who loves sitting where she has loads of company,also came to the balcony and sat with us,listening to our talks. The hot steaming cup of coffee,that opened the pores and senses of my face,and my brother's talks that opened my mind. The merry laughter, my mother's jokes,my brother's humor, my sister's getting irritated because she was made the butt of most jokes, my laughter at the mere hearing of so many jokes.I used to be cuddling Polly most of the time,brushing her hair. She looked into my eyes,and was the purest. It seems like ages since Ive had a moment like that ,just sitting and talking.
Sometimes I think,everything is racing so fast. I got admission in NIT Bhopal.Started living in another hostel,away from home.I used to look forward to going home on vacations.And this time Im spending it in Hyderabad,again,away from home. I want to close my eyes,and feel each moment with my family all over again.Those wintry afternoons, the rainy evenings and summer nights.
I just close my eyes.I feel it all over again.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Arundhati Roy:God of Small Things
I always liked to read books written by Indian authors,because I could relate to them so much better.And Arundhati Roy proved all my thoughts to the greatest extents.Ive read only half the book right now,but its soo addicting.
There is something about the way she looks for optimism in all negative aspects.
And thats soo true.A lot of times we feel our lives are in dump,but you know what?There will be soo many others whose lives would be in greater pains.So we musnt complain.
A must read for all.
Btw...music lovers: you must lsiten to "Toss The Feathers" by The Corrs.
And yeah,im coordinating a music show on a small level in our office. I dont knwo the ABC of music.But its fun seeing such talented people come together to perform something.LEts see how the preparation goes.
Hmm..Btw Pavitra..this is for you if you are reading this.
I miss you big time.
Cheers!
There is something about the way she looks for optimism in all negative aspects.
And thats soo true.A lot of times we feel our lives are in dump,but you know what?There will be soo many others whose lives would be in greater pains.So we musnt complain.
A must read for all.
Btw...music lovers: you must lsiten to "Toss The Feathers" by The Corrs.
And yeah,im coordinating a music show on a small level in our office. I dont knwo the ABC of music.But its fun seeing such talented people come together to perform something.LEts see how the preparation goes.
Hmm..Btw Pavitra..this is for you if you are reading this.
I miss you big time.
Cheers!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Detox Diet!
New thumb rule!!
When I feast on heavy,oily or junk dinner..the next entire day should be a detox diet.Which means giving total rest to your stomach to restart . Not eating carbs,having fruits,four glasses of lemon water, and everything light on the stomach.
Apparently,they say,it helps the skin to sparkle if done regularly.
PS-Dont worry.A day of absence from normal food doesnt mean Im getting anorexic.Just means my digestive system needs a day to restart.
When I feast on heavy,oily or junk dinner..the next entire day should be a detox diet.Which means giving total rest to your stomach to restart . Not eating carbs,having fruits,four glasses of lemon water, and everything light on the stomach.
Apparently,they say,it helps the skin to sparkle if done regularly.
PS-Dont worry.A day of absence from normal food doesnt mean Im getting anorexic.Just means my digestive system needs a day to restart.
My first pay cheque!!
I got my first pay cheque.No...no treats,Im planning in saving it,buying things for my family,and using a little to invest on shares.Yeah,Im going to try my luck at the stock market. Not to earn as such,mainly to learn how the stock market works.
Btw,there is a random Wi-Fi that works from my apartment.I love it!!!:):)
Btw,there is a random Wi-Fi that works from my apartment.I love it!!!:):)
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I love my Cubicle!
Im sitting in this dark cubicle,chose not to switch on the blinding-the-eye tubelights,have a table light switched on,listening to "Walou" by Outlandish,making a list of the work I need to finish today.Little stick notes here and there in different colours,brightly shining,more because of the dim lights,a glass of warm milk with foam,my laughing Buddha...random things scribbled on my whiteboard,list of upcoming birthdays...a picture of Bubbles of Powerpuff girls..
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And then I realised..
I truly and whole heartedly.
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I love my cubicle!!!
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And then I realised..
I truly and whole heartedly.
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I love my cubicle!!!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I am a weirdo and I love being one!!!
Its weird at times.When people ask me the following questions:
a)Whats up with your hair?
Ans: Nothing is ever UP with my hair.Its curly,and so its messy.And i have no qualms even if a leaf gets stuck in my hair.Let the leaf also get a place to rest for a while.
b)What do you do at your internship besides Gymming and reading the newspaper (read:Proof Reading)?
Ans:Nothing...Yeah...
c)Why am I so Loud?
Ans:Thats because Im such a tiny person,that my voice needs to compensate for it all.
d)Oh my god..such big Heels,how do you walk in them?
Ans: Duh...Cant you see Im just 5 feet 1 inch?...I need to look taller....Lemme bear with the aching feet in warm water later.
e)Wooden Chappals..Arent they a bit weird?
Ans:Read the title of this blog post and you'll realise why.
f)Toe ring......ummm...Are you married???
Ans:Funniest..I have no answer for this.Look at the person with a blank face. And guess what?It was my chemistry college teacher who asked me this.Embarrased and a red face...
g) Lady...You have SOME appetite....??
Ans:Why do you think I go to the gym?
h)Why cant I hear anything from your cell phone?
Ans:Oh thats because it fell into a bucket of water one day,and since then,..the speakers are damaged..Not to mention,when i gave it to be repaired,the only change was that the vendor removed the vibration mechanism..So my cell is always on silent mode.and Im still using it.
i)You are so short..and you play Basketball..WEIRD??
Ans:Yeah ,the tall ones roll me up and use me as one.
j)You have a weird sense of dressing,
Ans:Hey come to my room and check out my golden sandals and multicoloured tshirt.
k)Dont you just LOVE making lists?
Ans:Yeah..Check my previous blogs.I make a list of what lists I need to have.
These are just some of the weird things that prove im a total Whack Job..But yeah..Will update on the rise of the occasion.
a)Whats up with your hair?
Ans: Nothing is ever UP with my hair.Its curly,and so its messy.And i have no qualms even if a leaf gets stuck in my hair.Let the leaf also get a place to rest for a while.
b)What do you do at your internship besides Gymming and reading the newspaper (read:Proof Reading)?
Ans:Nothing...Yeah...
c)Why am I so Loud?
Ans:Thats because Im such a tiny person,that my voice needs to compensate for it all.
d)Oh my god..such big Heels,how do you walk in them?
Ans: Duh...Cant you see Im just 5 feet 1 inch?...I need to look taller....Lemme bear with the aching feet in warm water later.
e)Wooden Chappals..Arent they a bit weird?
Ans:Read the title of this blog post and you'll realise why.
f)Toe ring......ummm...Are you married???
Ans:Funniest..I have no answer for this.Look at the person with a blank face. And guess what?It was my chemistry college teacher who asked me this.Embarrased and a red face...
g) Lady...You have SOME appetite....??
Ans:Why do you think I go to the gym?
h)Why cant I hear anything from your cell phone?
Ans:Oh thats because it fell into a bucket of water one day,and since then,..the speakers are damaged..Not to mention,when i gave it to be repaired,the only change was that the vendor removed the vibration mechanism..So my cell is always on silent mode.and Im still using it.
i)You are so short..and you play Basketball..WEIRD??
Ans:Yeah ,the tall ones roll me up and use me as one.
j)You have a weird sense of dressing,
Ans:Hey come to my room and check out my golden sandals and multicoloured tshirt.
k)Dont you just LOVE making lists?
Ans:Yeah..Check my previous blogs.I make a list of what lists I need to have.
These are just some of the weird things that prove im a total Whack Job..But yeah..Will update on the rise of the occasion.
Loads of things to write!
Its been long since i posted any blog...maybe close to two months.So i decided to break the ice by writing something..So much has happened in my life since then.Its like ,i got my lucky charm. Im interning at Microsoft,and i truly love my job.Its my kinda job. I love the place as well. I want to write a lot about this place and about my journey from then till now.All the changes,all the getting-adapted-to procedures. But i really miss Bhopal,i miss home,i miss my mom and my sister and my brother and dad and Poll,i miss Roobaroo,i miss my "sons&daughters",i miss Popat,i miss my room.Soo many thingsBut enough for now,as i know the ice is broken..Ill be regular in posting blogs daily.One-Post-Each-Day is going to be my motto now.And you know what,typing these words down actualy motivated me to follow it..atleast for today..:).
Cheers!!!
Cheers!!!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
CAN I SCREAM OUT LOUD???
God.....Soo much pressure at one go. Unix,the subject has grilled my head,the final project report,fully bound,with lamination has our guide's pen marks on it. Reason???Correction in a few errors...God ....750 bucks.. has to be remade. Solution:We will just stick pages on top of it..Result:Untidy report. Too much course for the exam.. Plus the hostel gate closed at 8.30 today.Couldnt go out to meet someone. I am feelin irritated right now,tied down,frustrated...Annoyed is more like the word.
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Silver lining: The fact that im venting out myself is already making me feel better. I got the negtivity out..
Another advantage of blogging you see..
I still wish to scream out louddddd......once...so thats its all out of my system..
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Thanks buddy..this meant a lot...seriously!
Sometimes you feel you are losing out on friends,and suddenly they all come in front of you,back to you,like as if they never left you in the first place. I felt truly special today. And trust me,nothing could have made me feel soo much better than what I felt after talking to one of my really close friends,and btw,im proud to say that i havent lost all my friends.. Im back on track,injured,hurt, but survival is the key to this world.
I realised that I still have most of my special friends with me,and all this while when i kept crying for the lost ones,i forgot about those who were still there.I have nothing to cry now,ive cried enough, but wont anymore. Im all geared up for my exams now,and i realised that i can study only if i am happy. The friend gave me a lending ear,to all my problems,related to my minor project,exam preparation, exam schedule ,internship help....everything i could get help with. I just felt soo good venting myself out. And now i feel so much more relaxed now. So much contented. I now know how it feels to lose out on people....and how it feels when you realised that you actually didnt lose them.
Thanks buddy,it felt really great to have you back. This one is for you!!!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
The feeling of feeling focussed.
It finally feels great to feel focussed.I seem to have got back on track,with a lot of enthusiasm. Thanks to someone special,who taught me how to get focussed about life and work. I finally know what I have to do after I pass college,and I know what to do before I finish college. The main thing to do is my Arengetram,havent given it up yet. Im hoping Im able to practise during the 7th of the 8th semester,and placement rat race doesnt deter me from doing so. And earlier I was thinking of doing my Arengetram in Gujarat.But now im thinking,why not do it in Bhopal itself?Will be more fun having all my college mates see my dance performance.
Btw,the same someone taught me another thing.That one should sleep early,get up early,for complete efficiency. So from today onwards Ill sleep before 11,and get up by 6 everyday.
And ya,also that every hour of sleep before midnight constitutes to two hours of effective sleep.So the earlier you sleep,you can make up with six hours of sleep and feel totally fresh the next day.
So go on people,grab your early night's sleep.
Oh ya,almost forgot...the white puppy outside our hostel,who was named Elizabeth by me,got hurt badly on her leg.She was whining,i sat with her for sometime..then went to Mata MAndir to look for a vet,but couldnt find any because it was a Sunday,and it was already eight o clock. So ill be taking her to the doc tomorrow to get her plastered on her leg. I really wish she gets well soon so that she can begin chewing my jeans once again.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Im all happy today!!
Cant believe this unbelievable transformation from yesterday to today. I was all sad,depressed ,vulnerable, lonely till yesterday. I was crying over a lost friend,when i forgot that in return i had got someone in my life who made me forget all miseries. And of course to the rescue he came...And i was all happy and cheerful again. I was in a dilemma for a lot of reasons....work mainly. I wasn't getting a sense of direction as to what i am supposed to do after B.Tech..plus emotional vulnerability of losing out on a friend. I am so happy today,because I tried my level best to get the friend back..and if i think i tried..i will also get something in return. Plus i finally gained focus on what i should study. And I'm finally relieved that I'm not standing in the middle of this crossroad,trying to wonder which direction i should go towards.And finally,i all set to start studying for the thing I feel Im supposed to be.And Im proud of the person who gave me this sense of direction..I love the restaurant Bake and Shake at 10 number. Lovely place,amazing music,nice ambience,refreshing coffee.
I am seriously happy today after crying for hours last night because of the lost friend ...and Ive realized one thing. In life ,
"Good things come with a big price..and better things come with a bigger price. "
I am seriously happy today after crying for hours last night because of the lost friend ...and Ive realized one thing. In life ,
"Good things come with a big price..and better things come with a bigger price. "
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Change is constant! Frustrated Ramblings...
The year 2009 has been a year of a lot of change in my life.And as I always say..expect the unexpected. Too many things happened which has led me in a very different world than I normally was. And to be frank..Im not sure how good am I at adapting changes..
a)Internship at Microsoft,Hyderabad.Absolutely unexpected.Especially for a non technical person like me.Apparently they were looking for an intern who could fit into the post of a Product Manager.Not sure how i ended up fitting into it.
b)The formation of a full fledged basketball team girls of of MANIT,Bhopal.. we went to Hoshangabad to play an open state basketball championship and were runners up..i.e reached the finals..god only knows how that happened because we were so unprepared.Didn't have players decided at positions and at the same time,didnt even have a basketball kit...Anyway again the second element of surprise.
c)Sportomania 2009- MANIT inter college sports meet happening for the first time for girls. We won the finals basketball..Again a mystery how.. And seriously we hadn't even practiced ..
d)Lost out on two really close friends from my life because of huge misunderstandings and their disappointment over a decision I took in my life. I did not know ill have to pay such a heavy price for The ONE decision of my life.I still miss them too much,,and waiting for them to come back. Because they should understand that its one thing to take a decision and abide by it and another thing to lose out on friends and feel lonely,inspite of having so many people around. So 2009 made me realise Im a really cruel person who just knows to hurt people .
e)Took one major decision of my life of not being alone. And because I gained someone in my life,i ended up losing two. And this gaining wasn't expected.I was always against this policy ..but hypocrite that i am,i changed it.
f)Room got renovated and house looked really different. Not so big a change but listing things irrespective of their order of priority.
g)In this dilemma in the middle of this year what am i actually going to do in future..It seems so easy for people going for some coaching ,whether or not they are happy,because they atleast striving to work for something.What am i striving to work for?I have no idea.
h)Being scrutinized by some colleagues of my college and people judging me for decisions that i have taken in my life has been cornering me to a very huge extent.I normally am a very strong person but to some level...i get the feeling i can crack anytime...so vulnerable i am right now.
i)I'm happy that the decision i have taken in my life has been treating me well.No complaints at all.Infact Im really happy for that one thing.The external effects of course is taking a toll on my strength and courage,but the decision itself has made me happy.
j)People scrutinizing my decision and suspecting it has again been freaking me out to a huge extent.Esp if it was my close friend. I really don't want them to come to me and tell me that they had warned me and i didn't listen if i regret my decision..which till now i obviously don't.
So basically tooo many changes happening in a person makes her blank about whatever is happening. She is strong about adapting to changes,but wants a few things never to change.Like losing out on friends..Because she really is waiting to get her two lost friends back to her life.Because she really really missed them the most right now. Will she get them back?
a)Internship at Microsoft,Hyderabad.Absolutely unexpected.Especially for a non technical person like me.Apparently they were looking for an intern who could fit into the post of a Product Manager.Not sure how i ended up fitting into it.
b)The formation of a full fledged basketball team girls of of MANIT,Bhopal.. we went to Hoshangabad to play an open state basketball championship and were runners up..i.e reached the finals..god only knows how that happened because we were so unprepared.Didn't have players decided at positions and at the same time,didnt even have a basketball kit...Anyway again the second element of surprise.
c)Sportomania 2009- MANIT inter college sports meet happening for the first time for girls. We won the finals basketball..Again a mystery how.. And seriously we hadn't even practiced ..
d)Lost out on two really close friends from my life because of huge misunderstandings and their disappointment over a decision I took in my life. I did not know ill have to pay such a heavy price for The ONE decision of my life.I still miss them too much,,and waiting for them to come back. Because they should understand that its one thing to take a decision and abide by it and another thing to lose out on friends and feel lonely,inspite of having so many people around. So 2009 made me realise Im a really cruel person who just knows to hurt people .
e)Took one major decision of my life of not being alone. And because I gained someone in my life,i ended up losing two. And this gaining wasn't expected.I was always against this policy ..but hypocrite that i am,i changed it.
f)Room got renovated and house looked really different. Not so big a change but listing things irrespective of their order of priority.
g)In this dilemma in the middle of this year what am i actually going to do in future..It seems so easy for people going for some coaching ,whether or not they are happy,because they atleast striving to work for something.What am i striving to work for?I have no idea.
h)Being scrutinized by some colleagues of my college and people judging me for decisions that i have taken in my life has been cornering me to a very huge extent.I normally am a very strong person but to some level...i get the feeling i can crack anytime...so vulnerable i am right now.
i)I'm happy that the decision i have taken in my life has been treating me well.No complaints at all.Infact Im really happy for that one thing.The external effects of course is taking a toll on my strength and courage,but the decision itself has made me happy.
j)People scrutinizing my decision and suspecting it has again been freaking me out to a huge extent.Esp if it was my close friend. I really don't want them to come to me and tell me that they had warned me and i didn't listen if i regret my decision..which till now i obviously don't.
So basically tooo many changes happening in a person makes her blank about whatever is happening. She is strong about adapting to changes,but wants a few things never to change.Like losing out on friends..Because she really is waiting to get her two lost friends back to her life.Because she really really missed them the most right now. Will she get them back?
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Movie Marathon
Isn't it strange that a non movie buff like me ended up watching two movies,back to back....in one day...in the theater?????
I know difficult to comprehend. It was more like chance than choice. We bought tickets for the morning show in Jyoti Cineplex as it was cheap.We entered...waited for the movie Delhi 6 to start,suddenly "Slumdog millionaire" started.I was really blank for a few minutes. And as i had seen the movie earlier,i knew that it was Slumdog right from the first scene.We actually started considering getting out of the theater,but we couldn't.We were embarrassed to tell our other friends about it,and were laughing our minds off at the foolishness on our part. We finally decided we will watch Slumdog fully and then go to a cheaper Cineplex to watch Delhi 6. Because in the end we didn't want to go back telling people we didn't watch the movie we went for,and came back without watching it at all.So this is how we watched Slumdog and then Delhi 6 immediately after that in a really cheap theater.
Reviews:
Slumdog was as good as ever. The hindi dubbing is a real mood killer though.Also check out Pussycat Dolls cover for Jai ho.Much better than Sukhvinder's version.His voice is really irritating.
Delhi 6:Music was fabulous.Title track is nice.So is Noor,Genda Phool. Story had no meaning in it.The "monkey man" fiasco that happened in Delhi once in 2001 was the only thing the story was based on.
Today is the 1st of March.New day of a new month.New beginning. And lately i realized i wasn't spending time for myself enough. Sometimes it happens that one ends up giving too much priority to others that I forgot my own existence.I was tied down in this solid web in trying to solve a lot of complexities in my life. But you know,they say,instead of trying to invent an anti gravity pen,why not look for a pencil to write in space?
I really have to start concentrating on myself rather than others.And spend time with myself more than others.This involves a)less phone talks,b)less eating outside food ,c)caring for yourself first.
I have to start studying as well.Right now scenario is really bad.Not studying,only eating junk food.MY skin all tanned after basketball an ruined after all the erratic food and sleep habits and eating outside food all the time.And i realized that i need a mental "stick" to bash me up whenever I get out of schedule,or do something which is not good for me. So today is the new day of a new month,and i decided to refresh my brain a little and think of what i am doing.And whether this is what i want for myself.So a whole new list of monthly and weekly resolutions getting entered in my notice board.Lets hope the mental "stick" is there to bash me before things get out of hands. And my previous post about control over yourself,i must say that no matter what happens in life,or no matter how vulnerable you get...never ever lose control over yourself.
I know difficult to comprehend. It was more like chance than choice. We bought tickets for the morning show in Jyoti Cineplex as it was cheap.We entered...waited for the movie Delhi 6 to start,suddenly "Slumdog millionaire" started.I was really blank for a few minutes. And as i had seen the movie earlier,i knew that it was Slumdog right from the first scene.We actually started considering getting out of the theater,but we couldn't.We were embarrassed to tell our other friends about it,and were laughing our minds off at the foolishness on our part. We finally decided we will watch Slumdog fully and then go to a cheaper Cineplex to watch Delhi 6. Because in the end we didn't want to go back telling people we didn't watch the movie we went for,and came back without watching it at all.So this is how we watched Slumdog and then Delhi 6 immediately after that in a really cheap theater.
Reviews:
Slumdog was as good as ever. The hindi dubbing is a real mood killer though.Also check out Pussycat Dolls cover for Jai ho.Much better than Sukhvinder's version.His voice is really irritating.
Delhi 6:Music was fabulous.Title track is nice.So is Noor,Genda Phool. Story had no meaning in it.The "monkey man" fiasco that happened in Delhi once in 2001 was the only thing the story was based on.
Today is the 1st of March.New day of a new month.New beginning. And lately i realized i wasn't spending time for myself enough. Sometimes it happens that one ends up giving too much priority to others that I forgot my own existence.I was tied down in this solid web in trying to solve a lot of complexities in my life. But you know,they say,instead of trying to invent an anti gravity pen,why not look for a pencil to write in space?
I really have to start concentrating on myself rather than others.And spend time with myself more than others.This involves a)less phone talks,b)less eating outside food ,c)caring for yourself first.
I have to start studying as well.Right now scenario is really bad.Not studying,only eating junk food.MY skin all tanned after basketball an ruined after all the erratic food and sleep habits and eating outside food all the time.And i realized that i need a mental "stick" to bash me up whenever I get out of schedule,or do something which is not good for me. So today is the new day of a new month,and i decided to refresh my brain a little and think of what i am doing.And whether this is what i want for myself.So a whole new list of monthly and weekly resolutions getting entered in my notice board.Lets hope the mental "stick" is there to bash me before things get out of hands. And my previous post about control over yourself,i must say that no matter what happens in life,or no matter how vulnerable you get...never ever lose control over yourself.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Is control over yourself always the answer?
Does one always have to control what they think or feel?Doesn't it ever happen that for once you feel like surrendering to destiny? Or surrendering to what you think or feel? Instead of trying to capture those emotions into one big prison,because you think thats the way it should be......or if its the other way round,it might end up harming you??
Although sometimes after one has surrendered,one might face failures and then look back and wonder whether they took the right decision in the first place..So its upto oneself to think what is more important.........those cherished moments that live forever,even after knowing that failure has happened?Or "strategize" so perfectly that one ends up preventing....and Curing doesn't get a chance at all?
Once bitten,twice shy....I know that.. But what if one doesn't want to think at all?
Although sometimes after one has surrendered,one might face failures and then look back and wonder whether they took the right decision in the first place..So its upto oneself to think what is more important.........those cherished moments that live forever,even after knowing that failure has happened?Or "strategize" so perfectly that one ends up preventing....and Curing doesn't get a chance at all?
Once bitten,twice shy....I know that.. But what if one doesn't want to think at all?
Thursday, February 12, 2009
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"For every event that occurs, there will follow another event whose existence was caused by the first, and this second event will be pleasant or unpleasant according as its cause was skillful or unskillful."
Monday, February 9, 2009
Layout of my new room!!
Im really excited about my room getting renovated..It was more than expiry date to the room..and it needed a thorough job to it.Finally the day has come where it has started..I just have two days to specify which colorsare needed to paint the walls and what further changes.I dont want to waste money unnecessarily,so im making as minimum changes as possible..
Anyway i have a few plans for the room,and a few added decoration designs.. Would be happy if you can give more suggestions or give further ideas.
I was just talking to a friend the other day,and we were discussing about the color orange...He happened to know a lot of things about significance of the color orange (ask me what he doesn't know.. :P).He told me the color orange signifies purity in most religious cultures,be it the Buddhist culture or the Hindu culture. Also the chinese culture had associated its positive energy with the color orange.. Also ,according to the color therapy, the fun and flamboyant orange radiates warmth and energy..also stimulates activity....so lazy birds like me can finally get up and do SOME work..
Although orange can bring out strong emotions in a room...more like "love it " or "hate it" response.. but shades of peach,rust or terra cotta bring positive energies. So finaly i made up my mind to paint my room orange in color..I thought i would match it up with an off white color so that only orange should not become jarring to the eye.
something like this.
Also ,i thought of adding a touch or oriental culture to the room.So i thought of the lamps that can be used ,those paper lamps easily available in FabIndia for less that 300 Rupees.Here is an image of the lamps that can be used...Check out these lamps ...
(i dont plan to put it on the ceiling like this...it will probably be oriented on one of the sides or something..and maximum of 4 lamps....and maybe different sizes...lets see)
Also i thought ill add a touch of ethnic Gujarati work ...maybe on the pillow or a few cushions or something..I like the mirror work that is done in the Kachchh region of Gujarat.
Finally ..use of green in the form of plants and a few bells will complete the look of the room i guess. Lets see how it goes.....
Anyway i have a few plans for the room,and a few added decoration designs.. Would be happy if you can give more suggestions or give further ideas.
I was just talking to a friend the other day,and we were discussing about the color orange...He happened to know a lot of things about significance of the color orange (ask me what he doesn't know.. :P).He told me the color orange signifies purity in most religious cultures,be it the Buddhist culture or the Hindu culture. Also the chinese culture had associated its positive energy with the color orange.. Also ,according to the color therapy, the fun and flamboyant orange radiates warmth and energy..also stimulates activity....so lazy birds like me can finally get up and do SOME work..
Although orange can bring out strong emotions in a room...more like "love it " or "hate it" response.. but shades of peach,rust or terra cotta bring positive energies. So finaly i made up my mind to paint my room orange in color..I thought i would match it up with an off white color so that only orange should not become jarring to the eye.
something like this.
Also ,i thought of adding a touch or oriental culture to the room.So i thought of the lamps that can be used ,those paper lamps easily available in FabIndia for less that 300 Rupees.Here is an image of the lamps that can be used...Check out these lamps ...
(i dont plan to put it on the ceiling like this...it will probably be oriented on one of the sides or something..and maximum of 4 lamps....and maybe different sizes...lets see)Also i thought ill add a touch of ethnic Gujarati work ...maybe on the pillow or a few cushions or something..I like the mirror work that is done in the Kachchh region of Gujarat.
Finally ..use of green in the form of plants and a few bells will complete the look of the room i guess. Lets see how it goes.....
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Latika's theme
You know,there are times in life when you want to get out of all the mad rush and go to a quiet place and just sit in peace and calm,where there are only good things,no hatred,betrayal,envy or pain?Where you can's see all that is happening in reality?Let ignorance be the solution for once. I listen to this song and it gives me the solution.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Curling up on my mom's lap!!!
In this mad,bustling crowd of frantic people and never-ending activities where every mortal gets stuck in the rut of staying at pace with the others,where everything around seems like a black hole,that inspite of everything good happening in your life and people telling me good times are coming my way..........why is it that i just feel like closing my eyes and remember the good old days when i was a kid.??The moments when i used to bruise my knee after a bicycle race on my little BSA Champ multicolored cycle...and when my mom used to put Dettol and i wailed my eyes out because it burnt...............The moments when i used to come back from school and cry to my mom because i was one of the shortest girls in my class and asked her why god forgot to give me height...and she used to hug me and tell me that big things came in small packages...and i believed her....There were times when i fought with her like mad for silly reasons....and she still forgave me...i remember my teenage years...when irritability was my only emotion..........but still she bore with me......patient and kind......never got angry because of my petty tantrums.......
All these moments flash through my memory right now...at this phase...when people around me think that success is knocking on my door really hard (which again i think im just lucky right now,not because i was meant to get it),i dont feel like even thinking about all the materialistic achievements this month......nothing about the internship,or the basketball tournament..or even about any pretentious SGPAs....Dont want any gossip,any bitching about me,those eyes looking at me,waiting to cause harm..... those mouths that gossip about whether im even worth any internship or those wrong intentioned guys......
I can just think about going to my mom.......putting my head on her lap.....and stopping time.........
I just want things to be simple ...you know the KISS rule (Keep it simple,stupid)....
All these moments flash through my memory right now...at this phase...when people around me think that success is knocking on my door really hard (which again i think im just lucky right now,not because i was meant to get it),i dont feel like even thinking about all the materialistic achievements this month......nothing about the internship,or the basketball tournament..or even about any pretentious SGPAs....Dont want any gossip,any bitching about me,those eyes looking at me,waiting to cause harm..... those mouths that gossip about whether im even worth any internship or those wrong intentioned guys......
I can just think about going to my mom.......putting my head on her lap.....and stopping time.........
I just want things to be simple ...you know the KISS rule (Keep it simple,stupid)....
Thursday, January 29, 2009
My basketball tournament - 23-27th Janurary,2009
Every time it so happens that i always come up with a post which is a bigger roller coaster ride than the previous post.The trip to Hoshangabad,70 kilometers from Bhopal,was the most memorable trip after Mood Indigo 2007.. But this time the number of surprises and shocks were much greater than Mood Indigo 2008,the biggest shock being that we didnt even know we were going in the first place. A few of our college guys were going to play the state level basketball open tournament.I had information about this for quite some time.Now a few hours before the trip,one of the players called me up and told me that even girls are allowed to form a team and play,as it was an open tournament.I was absolutely clueless about anything that he was talking. Firstly ,we didnt have a proper team..or atleast never had coordinated with the top five players ever before.Secondly,we didnt have a proper sporting kit to wear.And thirdly ,the whole thing was really at short notice.Imaging calling up your classmate one night telling her to be ready by morning 6 to leave for a place to play a match at such a great level without preparation. God knows what was in my mind that time that i told him ill inform about the latest decision in some time.I called off emergency and asked the girls to get collected in one of the rooms. I told them about this thing.And to my surprise,they were more than happy to hear that an opportunity like that had knocked our doors.We finally agreed ,packed our bags,had insomnia that night,and finally got prepared to leave for Hoshangabad. Now we reached the station at 9. Train fortunately was late by half an hour. So the guys bought tickets for us,and they were general tickets.But according to them,it was advisable to sit in sleeper as general seats were over crowded. We sat in the sleeper class,not long enough to be encountered by the ticket checker.He fined us with a 4000 bucks..We pleaded (i mean the guys) and i tried using my charms.But all in vain.Finally he agreed for a 1000 bucks and we paid him. We reached there at about 11.30 pm.The place was pretty much like a village,but it felt good taking a girls team from MANIT,Bhopal,where normally girls constitute only 10% of the population . Our first day was ok.We saw the fixtures and realized we didn't have any match that day,and was going to happen only the next day. I and a junior decided to return back,she because she didnt have permission to stay back at night,and me because there was a cross country race in my college i wanted to participate in. We didn't get a train,so sat in a bus filled with umpteen people. Squeezed between them ,i came back only to see that the race was postponed to the next day.Anyway i returned the next morning,had a match,lost terribly,but won the second match that evening. But you see,when you get something good,always be prepared for a package.There's nothing like a free lunch. There was a set of cheap crowd to create disturbances and all.We however dodged against them and returned safely to our lodge. Next morning we won the third match ,which put us into the finals.
That same evening ,we guys went to the banks of Narmada river,which was the most ultimate fun ever.There was something soo peaceful and serene about the waves,inspite of the dynamic flow and we guys madly splashing water at each other. We all got wet in our basketball clothes ,and,inspite of the water being freezing cold,no one had the heart to get out of the water. The third day again was interesting,it was the final match between MANIT,Bhopal and girls of Ujjain. We unfortunately lost,but i must admit,the first half was a really tough competition.We also got a trophy and a cheque of 2000 rupees. Entirely was worth it. We had a huge photo session,but had to go back because of the anti social elements i was talking about. We went to the station,only to see that there was excess crowd and we wouldnt be able to get it.We had this hugeeeee argument about whether to go or to stay back,and the result of the fight was that half of us stayed back .Next morning we hired a jeep .That was the most awesome journey we could have.We kept chatting all along.. I am really thankful to the boys team who were with us,and helped us totally throughout the journey,inspite of soo many complication.This was the first time i didnt want to come back and curl up on my bed after returning. I was rejuvenated. Truly.
That same evening ,we guys went to the banks of Narmada river,which was the most ultimate fun ever.There was something soo peaceful and serene about the waves,inspite of the dynamic flow and we guys madly splashing water at each other. We all got wet in our basketball clothes ,and,inspite of the water being freezing cold,no one had the heart to get out of the water. The third day again was interesting,it was the final match between MANIT,Bhopal and girls of Ujjain. We unfortunately lost,but i must admit,the first half was a really tough competition.We also got a trophy and a cheque of 2000 rupees. Entirely was worth it. We had a huge photo session,but had to go back because of the anti social elements i was talking about. We went to the station,only to see that there was excess crowd and we wouldnt be able to get it.We had this hugeeeee argument about whether to go or to stay back,and the result of the fight was that half of us stayed back .Next morning we hired a jeep .That was the most awesome journey we could have.We kept chatting all along.. I am really thankful to the boys team who were with us,and helped us totally throughout the journey,inspite of soo many complication.This was the first time i didnt want to come back and curl up on my bed after returning. I was rejuvenated. Truly.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
An irritating truth!!!
Do you know that all are good at something..and have some talent in you??Its sad..that all of us,including me have almost wasted,or are on the verge of wasting our talents in the next few years.. Do you know why?
PROCRASTINATION...Lack of initiative...Lack of getting yourself off your beds. .Lack of the EUREKA moment in our lives.
The only reason why BPO companies use Indians as cheap robots is because we cannot think wider than the narrow horizons that have been created for us.Right since when i was a child and used to go to school...the society (not my home ,fortunately) used to say.."Acchi tarah padhaaii karna..Badi ho kar ingineeer ,doctor banna....MBA karna..Khoob paisa kamana"
Ok ..now the scrutiny in these sentences..
a)Seems like "Ingineer" and "Doctor" is the ultimate aim of life.Anyone doing anything else is someone who doesn't value studies.
b)It seems like everyone wants to study for money...Something like passion for your job has never been the first priority.
Why is it that we can never use our talents and just choose from the above three professions?I mean there are people who are truly meant to be engineers and doctors or managers?Why not leave it to them to decide?And isnt it an awfully big coincidence that all of us have the aptitude of becoming engineers and then managers?Isnt it ironic that half of us would have practically never "MANAGED" even a small event in our society,college or school?
I agree these it seems easy to get a job after being engineers and doctors and MBA students..
But looking at the present scenario,investment banking having razed to the ground,IT companies getting trapped in frauds and leaving around 50000 employees and their jobs in total jeopardy..
I think its time for all of us to give a hard knock on our brain doors and ask what we are truly meant to be doing?In a way the recession and total collapse of investment banking has given MBA students and engineers some break from the hoo-laa-hoo of getting job over job,and finally can sit back and wonder what they are meant to do?And do it only if they are meant to do..Its time we open our eyes and stop procrastinating and analyse ourselves,before it gets too late ..and we get succumbed in the robotic jobs foreign banks and firms have in store for us..
PROCRASTINATION...Lack of initiative...Lack of getting yourself off your beds. .Lack of the EUREKA moment in our lives.
The only reason why BPO companies use Indians as cheap robots is because we cannot think wider than the narrow horizons that have been created for us.Right since when i was a child and used to go to school...the society (not my home ,fortunately) used to say.."Acchi tarah padhaaii karna..Badi ho kar ingineeer ,doctor banna....MBA karna..Khoob paisa kamana"
Ok ..now the scrutiny in these sentences..
a)Seems like "Ingineer" and "Doctor" is the ultimate aim of life.Anyone doing anything else is someone who doesn't value studies.
b)It seems like everyone wants to study for money...Something like passion for your job has never been the first priority.
Why is it that we can never use our talents and just choose from the above three professions?I mean there are people who are truly meant to be engineers and doctors or managers?Why not leave it to them to decide?And isnt it an awfully big coincidence that all of us have the aptitude of becoming engineers and then managers?Isnt it ironic that half of us would have practically never "MANAGED" even a small event in our society,college or school?
I agree these it seems easy to get a job after being engineers and doctors and MBA students..
But looking at the present scenario,investment banking having razed to the ground,IT companies getting trapped in frauds and leaving around 50000 employees and their jobs in total jeopardy..
I think its time for all of us to give a hard knock on our brain doors and ask what we are truly meant to be doing?In a way the recession and total collapse of investment banking has given MBA students and engineers some break from the hoo-laa-hoo of getting job over job,and finally can sit back and wonder what they are meant to do?And do it only if they are meant to do..Its time we open our eyes and stop procrastinating and analyse ourselves,before it gets too late ..and we get succumbed in the robotic jobs foreign banks and firms have in store for us..
Saturday, December 27, 2008
MOOD-Indigo...Ride of a lifetime.
It was one whole month of a roller coaster ride...The preparations..And mind you..roller coaster is more of a scary ride than a fun,pleasant experience....I always told my friends that our scenario is just like Leonardo Di Capri o of the movie Titanic,where he was clinging on to the wooden plank,dipped in the freezing water of the ocean,struggling to gasp his few last breaths..But still he never gave up....It was exactly the same..We got a call saying we got selected in the top 8 teams of the fashion show called ADAA..Now this was huge..considering we were a technical institute...not the most fashion conscious colleges of the country...We almost didnt have anything to bank on..No college funds..No designer ...No plans formulated...All we had was confidence...!!!
And that gave a thrilling turn to the whole series of events unfolding the next month. Everything took shape in a few days..First,the auditions for the models...Second thinking the themes for the rounds..Third ,deciding of funds ...Fourth..We found a designer in a design college in Bhopal who was really good at his job..All seemed perfectly on time..perfectly in shape..Suddenly our college goes on strike...We get holidays for 15 days..And exams get postponed..Everything ruined..Exams were scheduled till the 22nd and moodi to be started from the 20th....Everything was in a perfect mess..Most of the models backed out..No idea of where funds were going to be collected..No boutique agreed to sponsor our show. And we had exams at the same time..So the few people still trying to hold the plank had also studies to finish...Now the phrase "Being in a pickle " perfectly fits.. And then suddenly..one day the organizer of moodi calls and says we are in the top 8 teams of the show.I didnt know whether to laugh or cry, mourn or make merry..There was a time when i was practically approaching every female in my hostel ,asking her whether she was interested to come to Mumbai..I detested the feeling of feeling like a saleswoman. We were everything...Perfect multi tasking..Right from salesmen and saleswomen,technicians,designers,magazine buyers and borrowers..thermocol beggars in the girls hostel at 12 at night,porters to lift garments...to models ourselves even without the god gift of height...Just to fill up the gap that no one wanted to.. It was really weird considering that people were actually kicking the opportunity that came till their doorstep..Or more...begged them to be grabbed...After many days of constant pressure..both from exams side as well as the fact that after getting selected we couldnt back out..things started finally taking shape..We made the count till 10 models and work began.. Then after constant pressure from the designers and managers of the show..We finally ended up going to moodi with complete dress..But zero choreography..Things finally took shape in mumbai as all we did for the first two days was to teach all the models to walk the ramp right.See i know im a last-minute person....But this was like the last second before you were going to fall off a cliff..
So finally the D day came...We started getting dressed...The music piece was getting prepared right then..Ya i know ..i told you right..Last second preparations. Anwyay we were dressed to see that other colleges were much more prepared than us..They had a lot of things...Greater investments...Better models....Greater preparations...We still were soo confident.........no one was disheartened yet...The round 1 started and was not bad....Round 2 was a little disaster as the music piece got over before the entire walk was over........Overall the whole thing was not bad...Maybe if the whole exam postponing thing hadnt happened........We were sure to rock the stage..Few things I learnt..
a)Make music first...Only then focus on the garments.
b)More is less....Even the tackiest of make up doesnt show enough on stage.
c)Concentrate on choreography first and not garment detailing.
d)Accessories are the highlight of any garment..Not the garment itself..
e)In a team..One person should never be responsible for garment construction and choreography..It creates a pickle..
But entirely the experience was worth it..You know when i walked the ramp in the first round..And the bright lights and camera clicks on my face......And about 8000 to 10000 people sitting right in front of me...looking at me closely, and focussing on every detail.I just felt that the entire experience was more than worth it>.And i just felt soo proud when i walked it up.......It was a performance of a lifetime..Who knows..whether we will even try for Adaa ever again.Or will we ever even get selected again...MOODI wil come only once more in my college life.All i know was...that I FELT PROUD!!!
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And that gave a thrilling turn to the whole series of events unfolding the next month. Everything took shape in a few days..First,the auditions for the models...Second thinking the themes for the rounds..Third ,deciding of funds ...Fourth..We found a designer in a design college in Bhopal who was really good at his job..All seemed perfectly on time..perfectly in shape..Suddenly our college goes on strike...We get holidays for 15 days..And exams get postponed..Everything ruined..Exams were scheduled till the 22nd and moodi to be started from the 20th....Everything was in a perfect mess..Most of the models backed out..No idea of where funds were going to be collected..No boutique agreed to sponsor our show. And we had exams at the same time..So the few people still trying to hold the plank had also studies to finish...Now the phrase "Being in a pickle " perfectly fits.. And then suddenly..one day the organizer of moodi calls and says we are in the top 8 teams of the show.I didnt know whether to laugh or cry, mourn or make merry..There was a time when i was practically approaching every female in my hostel ,asking her whether she was interested to come to Mumbai..I detested the feeling of feeling like a saleswoman. We were everything...Perfect multi tasking..Right from salesmen and saleswomen,technicians,designers,magazine buyers and borrowers..thermocol beggars in the girls hostel at 12 at night,porters to lift garments...to models ourselves even without the god gift of height...Just to fill up the gap that no one wanted to.. It was really weird considering that people were actually kicking the opportunity that came till their doorstep..Or more...begged them to be grabbed...After many days of constant pressure..both from exams side as well as the fact that after getting selected we couldnt back out..things started finally taking shape..We made the count till 10 models and work began.. Then after constant pressure from the designers and managers of the show..We finally ended up going to moodi with complete dress..But zero choreography..Things finally took shape in mumbai as all we did for the first two days was to teach all the models to walk the ramp right.See i know im a last-minute person....But this was like the last second before you were going to fall off a cliff..
So finally the D day came...We started getting dressed...The music piece was getting prepared right then..Ya i know ..i told you right..Last second preparations. Anwyay we were dressed to see that other colleges were much more prepared than us..They had a lot of things...Greater investments...Better models....Greater preparations...We still were soo confident.........no one was disheartened yet...The round 1 started and was not bad....Round 2 was a little disaster as the music piece got over before the entire walk was over........Overall the whole thing was not bad...Maybe if the whole exam postponing thing hadnt happened........We were sure to rock the stage..Few things I learnt..
a)Make music first...Only then focus on the garments.
b)More is less....Even the tackiest of make up doesnt show enough on stage.
c)Concentrate on choreography first and not garment detailing.
d)Accessories are the highlight of any garment..Not the garment itself..
e)In a team..One person should never be responsible for garment construction and choreography..It creates a pickle..
But entirely the experience was worth it..You know when i walked the ramp in the first round..And the bright lights and camera clicks on my face......And about 8000 to 10000 people sitting right in front of me...looking at me closely, and focussing on every detail.I just felt that the entire experience was more than worth it>.And i just felt soo proud when i walked it up.......It was a performance of a lifetime..Who knows..whether we will even try for Adaa ever again.Or will we ever even get selected again...MOODI wil come only once more in my college life.All i know was...that I FELT PROUD!!!
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Monday, December 15, 2008
On Cloud 9!!!
I just gave my dance performance today.It was a dance drama and consisted of almost fifteen people...And unlike my imagination......the dance was absolutely fabulous..Totally marvelous ..it was on the causes and effects of global warming.I had become mother earth..There was a lot of drama involved..And i couldnt imagine my acting skills were not bad..There was this scene where all my children..The flowers,the trees and the rivers had got polluted..And i was looking at them..Ani loved that part..And i think i realised that on stage my acting skills much better than off stage..Anyway im waiting for the video of the dance to come to my hands..And then ill put it on youtube.. Comments will be most welcome..And the cutest but a little unfortunate part was that all my close buddies...They reached the auditorium immediately as the performance was over and make up was removed..hehee..Unfortunately they missed out on the live performance.Ill give them the video though..But im soo touched that all those people came all the way to see my dance..Infact half of them havent even finished the syllabus and the other half stayed up the whole night yesterday and finished their work...God such sweethearts they are..M proud to have such friends..Anyway will be posting my link to the video of the dance soon..Hope you'l dont hate it after reading soo much about it and then get disappointed..Cheers!!Lemmeget back to my studies now..I have computer network tomorrow ..Studied very lesss.Will have to stay up the whole night today..
PS-My mom is getting ready for the KV Malkapurram alumni meet.She will be meeting her friends after 36 years..Yes i know its huge..I hope we guys also plan a MANIT meet or a Mount Carmel Gandhinagar meet after many years..She is all geared up for it.And yeah her writing skills are on a roll nowadays..She has been into a lot of prose and poetry writing lately...Hope to see her blog soon too.Enjoy!!!
PS-My mom is getting ready for the KV Malkapurram alumni meet.She will be meeting her friends after 36 years..Yes i know its huge..I hope we guys also plan a MANIT meet or a Mount Carmel Gandhinagar meet after many years..She is all geared up for it.And yeah her writing skills are on a roll nowadays..She has been into a lot of prose and poetry writing lately...Hope to see her blog soon too.Enjoy!!!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
How careless am I??Im really happy though........
I realised im a very careless person..........God and all these people..Amit Bhai ,Popat,Prerna and others could seriously kill me..I had gone for my dance practice at 9 in the morning...And came back at 9.30 at night..I have a small scale semi classical dance show tomorrow ..(location not mentioned..lol..as you know i dont want people to come and see it...and dont want to make a nice egg-tomato dish...))anyway my cell had low battery..And so had got switched off.And i was seriously careless to inform anyone that ill be late..I was actually soo engrossed in dancing and the technical work involved with the music ..And i think i am doing quite an OK job in the dance..:Lets see how it goes.....Anyway...So when i came back....it was 9.30 at night..Hadnt informed the warden....hadnt informed any of my friends...And luckily my dance maam and her son came to drop me to the hostel..So left my 12 -year new kinetic in her house itself..And the moment i reached outside the hostellll........Bhai was standing .....and so was urvi......And i got the scolding of my lifetime.......But im really feeling guilty.....because i destroyed my bhai's birthday...Anyway this scolding was good enough a lesson to inform my careless mind .........to always do the following:
a)always charge your mobile phone...
b)always keep some balance in your cell..
c)repair your 12 year new kinetic........just incase i get stranded...Coz my friends thought i met with an accident or something.....
Anyway the happy part is that i felt sooooooooo speciallllll.......Seriously......i realise i have such people to care for me.....I love them sooo much..And to some extent ,i m glad this event happened......I realised how much i love my friends....All of them......
a)always charge your mobile phone...
b)always keep some balance in your cell..
c)repair your 12 year new kinetic........just incase i get stranded...Coz my friends thought i met with an accident or something.....
Anyway the happy part is that i felt sooooooooo speciallllll.......Seriously......i realise i have such people to care for me.....I love them sooo much..And to some extent ,i m glad this event happened......I realised how much i love my friends....All of them......
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
The most beautiful gift!!
Priya Ku(maa)r-that's her name. Engineering-that's her profession. Cancer-that's her zodiac sign. Choreography-that's her hobby. And dance!!!!......that's her passion. For her life is a celebration and she sure knows how to celebrate it. Studies for her is a last minute thing, and physical regimen is a must.
Whenever a friend is in trouble, the first name that comes to mind is 'Priya". She will go to any length to solve it. She often keeps her mom busy too. The stray animals in Bhopal know they have a savior in her. She picks up the sick ones and sneaks them into her hostel, without the warden's knowledge. With her care, and help from friends, the sick animal recovers, and is placed back from where it came. She has asked me to use the KV....MAA forum to request the Mighties to adopt a sick animal each and give them a home. She is a Maa herself to these mute and cute beings.
Leadership is something that comes naturally to her. She is always in command of any situation and is called a 'Lovable Leader'
Priya is an epitome of elegance and grace,confidence and talent, innocence and cheer. She dances like a swan. If you happen to be anywhere near her college and hear the sound of several footsteps, you can be sure the lil girl is making a large group of students, double her size, dance to her (tune) every move and step. She has succeeded in converting the most shy and awkward friend into a reasonably good dancer. Every choreography of hers is a masterpiece in itself. At the age of three, she once tried to convince a dance instructor that she was seven, when the lady told us that that was the qualifying age to start dance lessons.
The enthu of people around her is to be seen to be believed. At home whenever there is a crisis, I don't know how she manages to turn up on time. The moment the crisis is over, she too is gone...........to her celebration................of life.
This lil nurturer is filled with supreme confidence in herself and confidence in others. She is able to see the best in people. She has proved the saying 'great things come in small packages'.
Priya is a bundle of joy, energy and talent. You can write a never-ending book on her. She is food for thought, a balm to your soul and a smile for your lips. She reminds you of Lisa of the Simpson's fame and Sania Mirza of the Tennis fame. Keats rightly said, 'a thing of beauty, a joy forever' !!
Rgds
Bhagi
"This is the ideal place where this should be...I love you mom..More than anything else in this whole wide world..Thanks for this beautiful gift..."
Whenever a friend is in trouble, the first name that comes to mind is 'Priya". She will go to any length to solve it. She often keeps her mom busy too. The stray animals in Bhopal know they have a savior in her. She picks up the sick ones and sneaks them into her hostel, without the warden's knowledge. With her care, and help from friends, the sick animal recovers, and is placed back from where it came. She has asked me to use the KV....MAA forum to request the Mighties to adopt a sick animal each and give them a home. She is a Maa herself to these mute and cute beings.
Leadership is something that comes naturally to her. She is always in command of any situation and is called a 'Lovable Leader'
Priya is an epitome of elegance and grace,confidence and talent, innocence and cheer. She dances like a swan. If you happen to be anywhere near her college and hear the sound of several footsteps, you can be sure the lil girl is making a large group of students, double her size, dance to her (tune) every move and step. She has succeeded in converting the most shy and awkward friend into a reasonably good dancer. Every choreography of hers is a masterpiece in itself. At the age of three, she once tried to convince a dance instructor that she was seven, when the lady told us that that was the qualifying age to start dance lessons.
The enthu of people around her is to be seen to be believed. At home whenever there is a crisis, I don't know how she manages to turn up on time. The moment the crisis is over, she too is gone...........to her celebration................of life.
This lil nurturer is filled with supreme confidence in herself and confidence in others. She is able to see the best in people. She has proved the saying 'great things come in small packages'.
Priya is a bundle of joy, energy and talent. You can write a never-ending book on her. She is food for thought, a balm to your soul and a smile for your lips. She reminds you of Lisa of the Simpson's fame and Sania Mirza of the Tennis fame. Keats rightly said, 'a thing of beauty, a joy forever' !!
Rgds
Bhagi
"This is the ideal place where this should be...I love you mom..More than anything else in this whole wide world..Thanks for this beautiful gift..."
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
BACK HOME!!
Im back home..everything is in a mess..right from exams to moodi preparation to my solo classical dance learning.I dont know what to do..Seriously.Its soo sickening to look around and see that sometimes we just dont get justice.IS justice soo difficult that a common man can't get it?Is it soo impossible that even after losing a college mate ,justice doesnt arrive to him?and because of all this.. everything around is in jeopardy.
Let Rahul Pathak's soul rest in peace.
God Bless
Let Rahul Pathak's soul rest in peace.
God Bless
Sunday, November 9, 2008
I cant believe it just happened!!
My hands are even trembling to write this post.But im just too excited and have to tell you'll about it..OK..Remember i always used to tell you all that there is something about Mohit Chauhan's Voice??SOmething about every song he sang,right from boondein to dooba dooba to khoon chala to tum se hi(my all time favourite) to kuch khaas.........Guess What??????????????????
I just talked to Mohit Chauhan on the phoneee.....
Godd....It was unbelievable .Basically,our senior Ozzy and his band called Pintight was to perform in Indore today ,the 9th November along with Mohit Chauhan.And all these guys Ashir,varun and obviously the band is sitting in indore right now. And even ashir knows howw mad i am for mohit chauhan. So ashir asked mohit chauhan to give an autograph specially for me..Then ashir called me ..He said that he had been talking to mohit all day...AAH!!God how stupid was I not to go to Indore,,exams and all.GOD!!!Anyway he asked me whether he wanted me to talk to mohit or not......I was soo nervous at first.But till then ashir hung up saying the show is about to begin,so mohit wont be able to talk right now..So he will talk later..I was really disheartened.But he called again after a minute and asked me to run to a place of good connectivity,BECAUSE THE NEXT FEW MINUTES WERE GOING TO BE MY DREAM COME TRUE..I ran outside.......It was 9.41 pm sharp..And suddenly a familiar voice said something from the other side..He said "Hello Priya"......And my heart just new no bounds.. It was the same voice that i heard 24*7 ..Everytime i heard a song was mostly of mohit chauhan's. And the same voice was actually talking to me..I was just soooo nervous.....I mean.....It was MOHIT CHAUHAN i was talking to..>I started stammering and asked whether this is "MOHIT CHAUHAN".>ANd he said "Ya this is mohit speaking".....
Then he asked me "Ive heard you are studying for your exams .."
My heart fluttered even more "Ya.YOu have no idea what a big fan i am of your songs...right from dooba to kuch khaas,Ive never missed a single song of yours"
And he went "Really.....Oh thank you so much.Im glad you like my songs so much ."
ANd i just went on screaming without letting him talk.I mean..Normally when im really nervous and happy at the same time,i try to hide it by talking more and more.
Unfortunately he had his show starting and he had to leave .
So he said "Hey Priya,ill talk to you later.My show is about to begin,but anyway all the best for your exams"...
I seriously felt like telling him i love him.But i thought it would look like a total mad fan(which i didnt want myself to be potrayed as,but ended up doing the same).
I wished him good luck for the show,..And that was the end of this fabulous experience.
I was literally jumping in the courtyard for five minutes,not able to believe i talked to my favourite singer,someone whom i always said has something in his voice.....which i am truly in love with.
I wish i could have got to talk to him more...and listen to the same voice....That i hear all the time..
I just talked to Mohit Chauhan on the phoneee.....
Godd....It was unbelievable .Basically,our senior Ozzy and his band called Pintight was to perform in Indore today ,the 9th November along with Mohit Chauhan.And all these guys Ashir,varun and obviously the band is sitting in indore right now. And even ashir knows howw mad i am for mohit chauhan. So ashir asked mohit chauhan to give an autograph specially for me..Then ashir called me ..He said that he had been talking to mohit all day...AAH!!God how stupid was I not to go to Indore,,exams and all.GOD!!!Anyway he asked me whether he wanted me to talk to mohit or not......I was soo nervous at first.But till then ashir hung up saying the show is about to begin,so mohit wont be able to talk right now..So he will talk later..I was really disheartened.But he called again after a minute and asked me to run to a place of good connectivity,BECAUSE THE NEXT FEW MINUTES WERE GOING TO BE MY DREAM COME TRUE..I ran outside.......It was 9.41 pm sharp..And suddenly a familiar voice said something from the other side..He said "Hello Priya"......And my heart just new no bounds.. It was the same voice that i heard 24*7 ..Everytime i heard a song was mostly of mohit chauhan's. And the same voice was actually talking to me..I was just soooo nervous.....I mean.....It was MOHIT CHAUHAN i was talking to..>I started stammering and asked whether this is "MOHIT CHAUHAN".>ANd he said "Ya this is mohit speaking".....
Then he asked me "Ive heard you are studying for your exams .."
My heart fluttered even more "Ya.YOu have no idea what a big fan i am of your songs...right from dooba to kuch khaas,Ive never missed a single song of yours"
And he went "Really.....Oh thank you so much.Im glad you like my songs so much ."
ANd i just went on screaming without letting him talk.I mean..Normally when im really nervous and happy at the same time,i try to hide it by talking more and more.
Unfortunately he had his show starting and he had to leave .
So he said "Hey Priya,ill talk to you later.My show is about to begin,but anyway all the best for your exams"...
I seriously felt like telling him i love him.But i thought it would look like a total mad fan(which i didnt want myself to be potrayed as,but ended up doing the same).
I wished him good luck for the show,..And that was the end of this fabulous experience.
I was literally jumping in the courtyard for five minutes,not able to believe i talked to my favourite singer,someone whom i always said has something in his voice.....which i am truly in love with.
I wish i could have got to talk to him more...and listen to the same voice....That i hear all the time..
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
A fresh new start!!
ok! a week for my exams...exactly 7 days....I really don't want to ruin my pointer because of extra curricular activities..And you know what??I was just remembering my school days..when i was in the 9th standard..That time i was a really studious person..And i was kinda sure that if i was the same till the end of 12th,i would have made it to the IITs..Lol..... Anyway i think i should get serious with studies..Lets hope this entire week of preparations go well.MY caffeine intake might increase because of the amount to study, which would be directly proportional to the amount of coffee that would enter my stomach......
Anyway im feeling really weird today........I think i need to meditate ......ok thats abt it for today..nothing speciall.......just being stressed with work..its a lot of work these days...not getting time for myself...but no time for that now..need to study.....Wish me luck,,so that i dont destroy my pointer....And so that people dont get an excuse to tell me that because of my participation in extra curricular activities ,my performance in academics has gone down......Btw also missing my Gandhinagar friends....A lot................
Anyway im feeling really weird today........I think i need to meditate ......ok thats abt it for today..nothing speciall.......just being stressed with work..its a lot of work these days...not getting time for myself...but no time for that now..need to study.....Wish me luck,,so that i dont destroy my pointer....And so that people dont get an excuse to tell me that because of my participation in extra curricular activities ,my performance in academics has gone down......Btw also missing my Gandhinagar friends....A lot................
Sunday, November 2, 2008
On an emotional high!!
God..im really feeling emotional right now.We guys had our 'Roobaroo' meeting today for the final selection of models for Adaa(the fashion show).After all that was done,we decided to go out to new market in the little hope for sponsors who could fund our garments for adaa..........I,Animesh,Akanksha ,Era and Monica had gone to new market. GT reached Bhopal and joined us. We went to two shops but efforts in vain. The later part was the best..We were going around in the market,laughing like total maniacs,And joined by Ashir,things got even funnier.WE saw this toy man selling that fake nose and specs where when we blow ,the moustache rises up and makes that noise.I bought it..And my godddd....after that i wore it throughout new market and making those noises..People really thought i was crazy>.It was just perfect..So beautiful ...Allof us together...The bond created between us.. It was soo touching to see such close friendship.such purity...Amidst all the laughter i had a little tear in my eye thinking of how pure can a moment be..How perfect..I was suddenly thinking how much will i cry when ill leave this college.Now im so attached to my college mates that i just dont feel like getting out of bhopal..And to the people who are not satisfied with bhopal,lemme tell u...i wouldnt have found my friends in my college,the sweetest hearts in this world..had it not been for bhopal..........Today was just perfect..Im touched.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Emotionally not too strong at times.
I think Amit is absolutely right.He always told me this right from 7th standard that im an emotionally weak person.I never admitted it ,but now i do.But i still dont agree to him totally,because i think i still am strong..ITs just sometimes emotions give way and things go haywire . Like today,I got really emotional when someone kinda tried to put me down. Infact people like that have no significance in my life.... Otherwise nice day..Dance practice went really well. And my thighs need some good amount of rest it looks like .
We had dinner at Hong Kong Chinese. Was laughing madly at Amar's jokes. And I seriously realised something.That people who you feel are the most bindaas and happy go lucky in general,are infact the most sentimental people around.The perfect example being Amar...
And I think emotions play the most vital part in a man's life.
So people should not play with them.
We had dinner at Hong Kong Chinese. Was laughing madly at Amar's jokes. And I seriously realised something.That people who you feel are the most bindaas and happy go lucky in general,are infact the most sentimental people around.The perfect example being Amar...
And I think emotions play the most vital part in a man's life.
So people should not play with them.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Halloween:Weird Blend!
MY first day at dance. I was being in the half sitting pose called aavdu pose for around one and a half hours.MY legs trembling. It was a lovely feeling.Reminded me of the incessant practice I used to do when i was younger. MY dance teacher Bharti Maam is an adorable doll,very encouraging. She really appreciates things. Im really happy to have found a teacher like her. I succeeded in talking to her to allow me to come for practices everyday from 6 to 7.30. mix of things happening in my life. I am feeling a little guilty of having done something which might have led to some emotional disturbances around and also some emotional development in some other places. I hope things don't end up being proved in such a way that my guilt is clearly proved right. I hope people who are a part of my college family (read:technical) dont end up doing something which might be crossing the line or something where they might be digging themselves a grave or a battle ground,or at maximum disowning. Lets hope things go well .And for the first time I hope my intuitions dont come true ,which to some extent it has..But not anymore..
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Its already happening!!
It was just yesterday when I was absolutely tensed with frustration because of the slow progress happening in mood-I work. Plus i was so busy organising adaa(the fashion show) and spectacular spectacular (dance drama) that I totally forgot about my own dance preparations. And today has been a really productive day for roobaroo. Our designs are finally complete for the round 1.It only needs to be given to the designer to sketch. Second thing,i contacted a dance teacher in bhopal named Bharti Humbal. And all thanks to the pushiness and perseverance of Aashir that today happened. He got her number from his friend and asked me to call her. And i did and she asked me to come to her place at 5.30. I went with Aashir and we talked about my solo classical dance in mood-I. And she wanted to test me to see how much I know.And i performed a little something....And the best part was that she found me talented.She said Im good,and I just need practice to polish my talent.GOd!!!This was the best news for me.I thought after leaving classical dance,the whole grace towards bharatanatyam is gone. But it seems like it is not true. I think i can still make it. AND IT seems like the first stepping stone to my dream. And this is all because of Aashir,without whom I probably wouldnt even have contacted any teacher for a lot of days. And i really learnt one thing from him,that in life if you want to get some work done you should A)Have good contacts whom you can call and ask for people regarding your work who can help B)Keep being pushy till you know the work is done,even if it involves calling up someone in the middle of the road when you are driving..
God this is a really nice day. It feels like something has finally begun..!!!
God this is a really nice day. It feels like something has finally begun..!!!
Monday, October 27, 2008
I close my eyes.
I close my eyes. And think of the things to happen. My participation in an international dance festival. The stage being all mine,millions of people to watch my performance,the stage lights on me. The mix of nervousness and challenge and excitement and happiness while beginning the performance. The sight of seeing soo many people and my mom sitting in the front row,smiling right at me.
I close my eyes and see 10 years from now.I see my adopted daughter 'Piah',the little 4 year old daughter ,who is an angelic beauty in true sense. I can see her learning Bharatanatyam right from the age of 3. Also taking ballet classes. I know she will be a much better dancer than what I could ever imagine myself to be. I would fulfil whatever my mom imagined herself to doing her life,and i know Piah will do the same for me.I know Piah is going to be the best dancer I would ever know.
I close my eyes and see my dance school, the school which deals in all forms of classical and western dances. Something that I would ensure that all the people around me realise how passionate one can become towards dance ..And that dance is just not a form of extracurricular activity, its an emotion in itself.
I close my eyes and see my pet organization, something I would love to do,for stray animals and pets. A home for them,a place for them to be looked after. I can see a huge place for the organization besides the meadows, a lot of kennels constructed together with a lot of empty space for the pets to run around. I can see so many dogs running around the empty space,during evening time,when the sun is on its way to set,and the orange ambiance gives me the feeling of happiness. I can see Piah picking up those little lambs and cuddling them. I can see her throwing Frisbee for the dogs to fetch.
I close my eyes and see myself the manager of a big cultural event,on a national level,like the Award winning shows. I can see myself running around ,managing the stage,decoration,talking to the sponsors and managing the budget along with ensuring the best of decoration. I can see myself deciding on which type of decor should the stage have. And what types of drape should be put on the back side of the stage.
I close my eyes and look at my mom and dad,who look at me with so much pride. I can see my mom,who has started a boutique,something she has been thinking of doing for long. I can see myself helping her out in buying the piece of land that she would need for her boutique.I can see her designing the best dresses and putting them for sale. And I am the biggest fan of her clothes.She is practically my designer.I can see my dad still continue his jogging,his fitness level on the zenith.I can see his smoking in control,and i can see he has decided to quit smoking. I can see him playing with Piah,playing badminton with her.
I close my eyes and realise..That life is so much better than what we think it is. It is so much more than frustration ,stagnation,self pity,fights with friends,bitching about people,falling in love with someone and not able to have him/her, jealousy,cribbing about the bad things happening in college.
Self cleansing
I was always a believer of yoga and the power of what it could do.And it is said that yoga is nothing without pranayama. But somehow I just like the power yoga asanas without the pranayama ,that is the importance of breathing. And more so,about meditation. I knew it works keep you concentrated and calm,but never had the patience to practice it. My mind wandered most of the times when I tried to meditate. I just tried it right now and I realise that it actually makes you feel dreamy. You get into this state of trance where everything around you seems so much better than what it is. You feel positive about everything that has happened to you and that is going to happen.
But surprisingly,as i said my mind wanders a lot when trying to focus.. And this state of imagination set in. It was like a visualization of what my future is. I dont know whether it was what it is going to be,or what I want it to be like. But the former and latter dont make much of a difference.And now I realised how important it is to take time out of your daily rat race and just close your eye and breathe. It gives you an altogether new perspective towards life.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
My EQ Test!
Your EQ is 127 |
 You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. On an average day, you're quite happy, together, and content. You live your life well. Your emotions aren't always stable, but you can go along with the ups and downs pretty well. You tend to be motivated, energetic, focused, and level headed. You see the world pretty rationally, and you don't tend to over dramatize things. When things are bad, you know they eventually have to get better. |
When will my dream come true?
Arengetram is the final stage performance of the classical dance Bharatnatyam. So Priya and Dance:Dance for me is like the air we breathe,the water we drink.. I joined bharatnatyam classes in the 3rd standard.And since then development of dance has been an integral part of me. After five years of training ,I couldnt do the stage performance because of a lot of trivial reasons.Whenever I google the word bharatanatyam and look into the images,the poses,the grace and the passion with which dancers perform.I just feel I so could have been one of them.But I missed by a small margin. I could have been on stage for a duration of five hours and performed to my heart's fullest.And then I could have looked at my mom's face,who would have been soo proud of me ..seeing me on stage. And then I could have called her on stage to give the final speech..And would have hugged her,and thanked her for whatever she taught me. I actually imagine each scene of that duration .and the entire event is perfectly pictured in my mind. I just have to put my imagination into reality. And I know its still not so late,I still can do my arengetram. I really want to do it someday..I have dreams of performing and my mom standing besides me ..All the time..helping me dress up for every performance...with the creativity she has.
I know that day will come one day in my life..But when?
I know that day will come one day in my life..But when?
US of G(Gujarat)
Gujarat...The gullible wonderland!!
As known by all,Gujarat is making tremendous progress by leaps and bounds and heading towards one of the most develop countries by the year 2010.This holy year has been a deadlines for most states of India,or rather for the word.!!This blog of mine is prepared to give you a lot of useful information about my vibrant and culturally rich state Gujarat..Inspite of being able to withstand the scrutiny faced by our present chief minister Narendra Modi during elections,he and our administration has proudly succeeded in living upto the expectations of the state,or maybe more than that!!
Talking of safety,Gujarat is one place which is very safe for women.Women can roam around till 12 at night without worrying much. Education wise we have good number of institutes in Gandhinagar and Ahmedabad itself.Institutions such as DA-IICT,NIFT,NID, and upcoming IIT stand to the stature of the state. Not to forget a lot of other colleges such as MS university Baroda,Gujarat University Ahmedabad and NIT Surat ,which comes amongst the good NITs of our country.
Since 2002,Gujarat has seen an exponential progress in terms of administration, infrastructure, technology,education and welfare of the gujaratis.!!With the huge success of the Narmada project,Gujarat,inspite of not being blessed with too much rainfall,has never had problems where household water is concerned.Gandhinagar,the capital city of Gujarat sees its beautiful and lush green city with impeccable roads comparable to the roads of the most developed countries of India. Also,in 2007 ,Gujarat came up with a new concept of gas pipelines instead of hassle causing LPG cylinders.It was probably the first state in India to come up with a concept like that.It is also one of the few cities in India which receives the least power cut offs (maybe once in six months or something) unlike cities which have power failures most of the time.As it is ,gujarat is a perfect place to be ,especially for single working women where safety matters are concerned. With fun loving and warm hearted gujaratis in town,it becomes a large home for one to live in.
Recently Gujarat has come up with this new concept called Wi-Max.It is basically Wi-Fi,but in the entire city. Gandhinagar and Ahmedabad are two cities which have been proposed to be made Wi-Max by December 2008. That means instead of getting a broadband ,one could get the same speed(maybe more) through Wi-Max without the hassle of wires.Gujarat will be the first of this kind in India.
Also another revolution that will totally change the way of living for most people is 24*7 water supply. Normally people receive drinking water twice a day which they save up in tanks. This supply of waterwill put the tank manufacturing companies in Gujarat out of business. There would be absolutely no need of storing water anymore.
And finally,as everyone knows the Nano project happening in Gujarat.. There is no field which is left to be achieved by Gujarat.
Such is the revolution created by the administration of Gujarat.Probably in the next few years ,it will come upto the levels of USA!!Go Gujarat!!!!
As known by all,Gujarat is making tremendous progress by leaps and bounds and heading towards one of the most develop countries by the year 2010.This holy year has been a deadlines for most states of India,or rather for the word.!!This blog of mine is prepared to give you a lot of useful information about my vibrant and culturally rich state Gujarat..Inspite of being able to withstand the scrutiny faced by our present chief minister Narendra Modi during elections,he and our administration has proudly succeeded in living upto the expectations of the state,or maybe more than that!!
Talking of safety,Gujarat is one place which is very safe for women.Women can roam around till 12 at night without worrying much. Education wise we have good number of institutes in Gandhinagar and Ahmedabad itself.Institutions such as DA-IICT,NIFT,NID, and upcoming IIT stand to the stature of the state. Not to forget a lot of other colleges such as MS university Baroda,Gujarat University Ahmedabad and NIT Surat ,which comes amongst the good NITs of our country.
Since 2002,Gujarat has seen an exponential progress in terms of administration, infrastructure, technology,education and welfare of the gujaratis.!!With the huge success of the Narmada project,Gujarat,inspite of not being blessed with too much rainfall,has never had problems where household water is concerned.Gandhinagar,the capital city of Gujarat sees its beautiful and lush green city with impeccable roads comparable to the roads of the most developed countries of India. Also,in 2007 ,Gujarat came up with a new concept of gas pipelines instead of hassle causing LPG cylinders.It was probably the first state in India to come up with a concept like that.It is also one of the few cities in India which receives the least power cut offs (maybe once in six months or something) unlike cities which have power failures most of the time.As it is ,gujarat is a perfect place to be ,especially for single working women where safety matters are concerned. With fun loving and warm hearted gujaratis in town,it becomes a large home for one to live in.
Recently Gujarat has come up with this new concept called Wi-Max.It is basically Wi-Fi,but in the entire city. Gandhinagar and Ahmedabad are two cities which have been proposed to be made Wi-Max by December 2008. That means instead of getting a broadband ,one could get the same speed(maybe more) through Wi-Max without the hassle of wires.Gujarat will be the first of this kind in India.
Also another revolution that will totally change the way of living for most people is 24*7 water supply. Normally people receive drinking water twice a day which they save up in tanks. This supply of waterwill put the tank manufacturing companies in Gujarat out of business. There would be absolutely no need of storing water anymore.
And finally,as everyone knows the Nano project happening in Gujarat.. There is no field which is left to be achieved by Gujarat.
Such is the revolution created by the administration of Gujarat.Probably in the next few years ,it will come upto the levels of USA!!Go Gujarat!!!!
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Rate my Life!
Hey i just saw this quiz taken by a blogmate of mine...Its called Rate my LIfe!I took the test and here is my result!
| This Is My Life, Rated | |
| Life: |  7.8 |
| Mind: |  7.2 |
| Body: |  9.5 |
| Spirit: | 7.5 |
| Friends/Family: |  5.3 |
| Love: |  1.4 |
| Finance: |  6.1 |
| Take the Rate My Life Quiz | |
Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score is reasonably high. This means that you are on a good path. Continue doing what is working and set about to improve in areas which continue to lag. Do this starting today and you will begin to reap the benefits immediately. (Read more on improving your life)
Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is within a healthy zone. This means you have achieved a level of mental balance and harmony consistent with living a healthy, happy life. Continue doing what works, and keep your focus. In our fast-paced world, mental clutter is all too common. Be vigilant in maintaining healthy mental function. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the mind.
Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have an excellent body score, which means you are incredibly focused on maintaining a healthy lifestyle. Continue in that focus, and your body will remain healthy and strong. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the body.
Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score is relatively high, which means you are rewarded by your beliefs. Spirituality is clearly important to do. Never let it slip, and continue to learn and grow. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the spirit.
Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score is not bad but can be improved. Maintain your current social net, while you try to expand it. Try new things and form new friendships. You will be rewarded greatly.
Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. There is love out there for you. Seek the advice of wise people on how to go about finding it. Do not lose hope. Read advice from other quiz-takers on finding and maintaining love.
Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. Your finances are somewhat in the middle, neither bad or exceptional. Keep doing what works for you, and improve what doesn't. Focus on long-term financial stability as your goal. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving your finances.
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Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Check this site out!Coolest ever..
Wow I just saw this site where there is this woman Patricia Moreno, who is a fitness/dance instructor and she teaches you the new way of living without the traditional retreat style of the Sages (Although personally,I even love the methodology of those sages). But for the people who find those ways boring,this is the perfect way to attain fitness,GET a HOLD OF YOUR LIFE and start a new ,fresh life ..
http://www.satilife.com/
http://www.satilife.com/
Time Management !!Im loving it.
I had a good day today.Touch Wood!. And I realised that the greater the pressure one has in their daily life,the better they learn to manage time . Infact I can say that my time management skills have improved a lot.
1)I study better without actually working harder.(Touch wood a million times)
2)I eat healthy
3)drink green tea every day
4)have atleast two servings of a fruit every day
5)exercise and yoga for an hour
6)get up early
7)read the newspaper thoroughly
8)ensure I drink up my daily dose of 3 litres of water.
9)Blog regularly,if not daily.
10)Make less noise
11)Have breakfast everyday,and also drink that tall glass of milk.(Woof..!!,that does require some effort))
I dont know whether it is a result of yoga which has improved my concentration,but it surely seems to be helping. I just feel soo good about it. I feel like saying Touch Wood soo many times... Anyway Im going home on this saturday, Im soo excited to meet my family and Polly,.Want to see how Polly has been doing,..And go shopping with my mom and give her like the new cool look. Anyway everyone knows this fact that my mom is a hundred times cooler than me,so probably I might need help from her,not the other way round. Anwyay its nap time for me,otherwise these achievements wont be met properly tomorrow. Take care.Happy Reading!!!
1)I study better without actually working harder.(Touch wood a million times)
2)I eat healthy
3)drink green tea every day
4)have atleast two servings of a fruit every day
5)exercise and yoga for an hour
6)get up early
7)read the newspaper thoroughly
8)ensure I drink up my daily dose of 3 litres of water.
9)Blog regularly,if not daily.
10)Make less noise
11)Have breakfast everyday,and also drink that tall glass of milk.(Woof..!!,that does require some effort))
I dont know whether it is a result of yoga which has improved my concentration,but it surely seems to be helping. I just feel soo good about it. I feel like saying Touch Wood soo many times... Anyway Im going home on this saturday, Im soo excited to meet my family and Polly,.Want to see how Polly has been doing,..And go shopping with my mom and give her like the new cool look. Anyway everyone knows this fact that my mom is a hundred times cooler than me,so probably I might need help from her,not the other way round. Anwyay its nap time for me,otherwise these achievements wont be met properly tomorrow. Take care.Happy Reading!!!
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Who will cry when you die!
I am a big fan of self help books. Unlike people who find it boring,monotonous and holier-than-thou attitude,I truly respect these books and yearn to follow each principle like the holy books. I have read The Monk Who Sold the Ferrari by Robin Sharma and I truly felt inspired after reading it. Ive heard a lot about his third book called Who will cry when you Die? .I was going through The Sunday Times and happen to read the page of Mind Over Matter(my personal favourite in The Times ) and saw the excerpt of the book. And one of the fundamentals explained was about getting up early during the day. They say its the quality of sleep that matters over quantity. And the reasons why one should have a good night sleep and get up very early each morning is because of the following:
1)You remember events of life,in the forms of happiness ,sadness and intellect longer. Try to remember,when you were small and used to getup for school everyday,dont you think that inspite of soo many years you still remember those moments more than the moment exactly a year before ,when you were in college,struggling hard to get up from bed?
2)It makes your day longer and makes you realise how special each moment is. You must have heard youself say this often:"I didnt realise where the day just passed". Time to take a review of your sleep habits.
3)Keeps brain more alert during the day. So lesser studying and more remembering of syllabus.
4)Keeps your metabolism high. Now one might ask how. See,only when you get up early will you succeed in having the most important meal of the day: The breakfast. And this meal helps to increase metabolism in the body. So you'll live longer,will stay fit,and not get fat and not know the reason.
Keep this points in mind and please dont forget to read this self help book, who knows your views about these books might just change.
1)You remember events of life,in the forms of happiness ,sadness and intellect longer. Try to remember,when you were small and used to getup for school everyday,dont you think that inspite of soo many years you still remember those moments more than the moment exactly a year before ,when you were in college,struggling hard to get up from bed?
2)It makes your day longer and makes you realise how special each moment is. You must have heard youself say this often:"I didnt realise where the day just passed". Time to take a review of your sleep habits.
3)Keeps brain more alert during the day. So lesser studying and more remembering of syllabus.
4)Keeps your metabolism high. Now one might ask how. See,only when you get up early will you succeed in having the most important meal of the day: The breakfast. And this meal helps to increase metabolism in the body. So you'll live longer,will stay fit,and not get fat and not know the reason.
Keep this points in mind and please dont forget to read this self help book, who knows your views about these books might just change.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
CCD's Sizzling brownie ..Heaven!
Yes,these words are coming out from a health freak,someone who is health conscious and strict about what she eats.But today I decided to cut myself some slack..I and Bhai(Amit Singh) went to get my kinetic from the service station and as a thank you,i decided to treat him at CCD. We went there and ordered a sizzling brownie. It was seriously heaven on earth.I forgot all about my diet and could only focus on the feast in front of my eyes. The waiter got one large chocolate-almond brownie on a typical sizzler plate to keep it warm for a long time. And there was a big dollop of rich,creamy vanilla icecream on top of it. He came with the sizzling hot brownie and freezing cold icecream on top . And then he poured rich chocolate syrup on top till the brownie sunk into it. And when the syrup came in contact with the sizzling hot plate,it started to bubble and became hot syrup. We savoured it like crazy. The crunchy, scrumptious almond pieces in between the brownie and the hot-cold feeling in the mouth was just irresistible. We ate up the entire brownie till we could lick it clean. Thank god no one was looking at us.otherwise they really would have thought we have been starving for the past one week..Wish I never put on weight after eating these high calorie foods!!Would have savoured them for life..
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Well..
Im really out of ideas right now.But because of the huge break ,i thought of initiating something so that i can promise myself to write blogs regularly. Hope i live upto it.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
I lost my cellphone..AGAIN!!!!!!
This is the second time I lost my cell. Woaaaaaaahhhhhh!So this is a note to the readers .Please mail me your numbers if you knew I had them on peeya87@yahoo.com..Anyway about the losing of the cell.I had gone to watch Rock On with my friends and I think the cell just fell down..So lets hope I get it tomorrow.Anyway Im feeling too blue to write anything more.So will write something tomorrow.Happy reading.
Monday, September 1, 2008
A mother's dream...
Every mother tells her child to fulfill the dreams that she had for herself ,but couldn't fulfill it. So many passions ,and those unfinished dreams of hers,maybe because she decided to create us and bring us to this life.She chose to give us the greatest gift of life over her dreams.Why?It is because of her that we are in this world,and because of her that we are able to read and write this blog.But in return to this greatest gift,have we thought of letting her dreams get fulfilled?Have we ever thought that our mothers might be looking back and wondering that they missed in life,and what they could do with their talents?Have we ever thought that she wants her creation,us ,to fulfill her dreams ?Its still not late.We still can fulfill her dreams,make her proud of the fact that her dreams got fulfilled,if not by her,atleast by her children,her creation.
I promise you mom that in life you will see all your dreams fulfilled.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Can I forgive and forget?
They say humans should always learn to forgive and forget. That is always a virtue.But what if one cant?What if one feels that some mistakes are beyond forgiveness?Are there mistakes that are beyond forgiveness?Or is it just that we ,mortals ,dont just have the ability to forgive someone who hurt you .Or even if not forgive,atleast forget.I can forget mistakes by others easily,but are we sure we can forgive? And mortals would always think one fundamental question."Why should I forgive if it was the other person who hurt you" ans ordinarily a person would think..Why forgive?The question still remains unanswered . Should one forgive other humans even if they feel their mistakes is beyond forgiveness?
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